just a girl.

Guess what?!
12 days until my Latin Dancing classes start!

I know this is all a it depressing, i used to be a ballerina, a completely thin, graceful, paid to dance ballerina while i was still in highschool & then fresh out.
But i was injured, like really injured.

So, i decided that while i still want to dance, i dont want to have to start from the basics in ballet again, that would just be the MOST patronising torture in the WORLD!!

Contemporary?? no schools around here offer them for 20 year old former pro dancers, id be stuck in a class full of old ladies being taught by someone who is less qualified then me..

I HAD AN EPIPHANY!!

what dance style can you start from at an older age?? LATIN!
what dance style is offered within a close distance to UNI & home? LATIN!
what dance style wont care about my intensive ballet training? LATIN!!

LATIN! LATIN! LATIN!

So im doing it!

im so excited, ive got the shoes, ive got the brand spanking new gym bag & know what else i am so UBER excited about???

THAT... between dancing twice a week, going to the gym for weights tree times a week, doing yoga once a week & running every single morning, ILL LOSE MORE WEIGHT!!

oh, speaking of weight, ive started to get well paranoid again...
relapse??
ive never been completely well before to know what a relapse feels like...

oh, fuck it. i obviously dont care, in all honesty, if i did care if i was relapsing i prolly wouldnt have fasted hahaha, theres logic for ya.

know what else is a mind fuck?

i was at a train station today & i saw a space on the seat between two old ladies, they moth motioned to me that the seat was free, but i looked at it & thought 'no way will i fit in there, my hips are way too big"
but they motioned again & i figured if i was so wide i was basically sitting on them i would just stand up till the train came...
so...
i sat down & there was room for a WHOLE other person to sit next to me & THEY DID!

it was a booming mind warp!!